Why the Big Book Says ‘Probably’ on Page 60 – Glenn

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Glenn traces a life defined by a desperate need for approval and a fantasy world built to escape a childhood of abuse and chaos. He describes the wreckage of a 'living fast' lifestyle—including a catastrophic car accident at 100 mph that left him unable to walk and multiple stints in prison. After several failed attempts at sobriety where he focused on 'busy work' and ego, a series of strokes finally stripped away his remaining illusions. He maps out his shift from a 'stage character' who pretended to know everything to a man practicing rigorous honesty. Through the guidance of his sponsor, Bill T., and a deep dive into the Big Book, Glenn dismantles the selfishness and self-will that kept him isolated, eventually finding a connection to a Higher Power that allows him to be authentic rather than a performance.

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• 0:00 Glenn opens with a prayer for Quentin and his healthcare team.
• 3:15 Mentions his sponsor, Bill T., and his study of the 36 spiritual principles.
• 5:30 Discussion of Tradition 1 (Unity) and Tradition 2 (Higher Power as the ultimate authority).
• 10:15 Recounts childhood trauma and the 'headlights across the window' signaling trouble at home.
• 14:40 Describes the 'fantasy world' in his head and the first time alcohol allowed him to connect with others.
• 19:20 The car accident at 100 mph that left him paralyzed.
• 25:10 Discusses the 'allergy and obsession' and the 'committee in his head'.
• 30:45 Reflects on his first failed attempt at sobriety and the trap of 'busy work' and ego.
• 34:10 Describes the impact of three strokes and the subsequent need for total surrender.
• 38:20 Working the steps with his sponsor and the realization of 'self-will run riot' on page 62.
• 41:15 Laughter: Discussing his 'stage character' and pretending to know sports.
• 44:30 Closing reading from Emmett F. on being 'poor in spirit'.