Step 10 and Daily Maintenance – Sponsorship Workshop – 2024 – Part 4 of 16 – Ali H.

Thank you, Mickey. Hi, everybody. Ali, grateful alcoholic. Great to see you all in week 10. And we're still showing up, eh? We're suiting up and showing up. It's a beautiful thing. I appreciate you all. Can we just start with somebody, whoever is on their heart to pray the set-aside prayer, any version of it that you like that's on your heart, just put up your hand electronically so we can begin with the set aside prayer, so we can set aside everything that we think we know for an open-minded new experience thank you pete thanks good morning everyone i'm an alcoholic my name is pete the set aside prayer dear god please set aside anything i think i know about myself this book my disease these steps and especially about you dear god so that i might have an open mind and a new experience with all these things please help me see the truth amen oh man thank you pete thanks brother all right so while people are still coming in i'll make a couple announcements allow them to come in and we'll begin uh trish was saying uh about the recordings yeah so remember at the beginning wasn't sure but it looks like the way it's going to happen is uh we won't cover what we need to cover but this is supposed to be the last session we'll do step 10 today um as a result of that i'm going to release the recordings immediately after everything's done emailed the whole entire set to everybody with the notes and and then we'll go from there so what what came to me i was contemplating on it um we're gonna just want to show you guys one thing so it's a little bit it's more clear um okay see where we are now remember we've emailed this out this is very important right this is the clear-cut directions of how to go through it right so if you know we're on 19 now okay so 19 says 19 doesn't have to be session 19 sometimes in one session we cover two or three depending on what it is right let the spirit move you so from now on each session will begin when i'm with a man that i'm sponsoring each session will begin by looking at immense then continuing with the big book of the rest of this stuff so every by this time i'm not like only at the beginning i'm meeting them two three times a week because i want to get them through the step one chapters even though we've we've been laser-like through the step one chapter and we haven't covered all of it with because so redundant in the big look right you don't need to but it still takes a little bit right um so uh but after after someone starts writing inventory like during the inventory process as as you'll see in these directions i shared my experience i it's been more effective when i have given column by column and given a timeline not a rigid you're wrong if you don't need it but let's commit to something in two days i could come back have this can call for like that kind of thing so we're meeting more during the inventory process i would go through the big book and uh and give the directions and then uh and then somewhere along there i i stopped meeting less after you know pretty much like once a week once a weak once they start writing inventory it's really like once a week uh once inventory is finished um and then once a week as we meet every week i ask the person to take three or four or five names from them from the step eight list right uh write point form exactly harm's done that you think and then let's set up a plan of action what are you going to do in this week i'm going to call this person and approach this person right just to make the approaches so every week from then on until the amends are finished until we've attempted everything every week every session begins with looking at immense what happened what demands did you make what approaches did you make how they go a few more names let's make a plan let's take a plan of action we i don't want to stop on the immense process and then step 10. so we do page 84 to 85 second last paragraph that's what we're going to do today look at step 11. step 11 i put in three parts but doesn't mean necessarily that i'm going to divide it like i'm gonna do three different sessions sometimes i do with the men that i sponsor right sometimes sometimes we talk about the amends we talk about life and i just cover the nightly review let them practice that for a week they'll come back well you know it just let the spirit move you and guide you this is the thing i actually wanted to point out so what we'll cover now uh this is supposed to be the last session and we're going to honor that for the people that committed and from your in your busy lives you committed you carved out every single saturday for 12 sessions because of what we said right so we're gonna honor you on that if there's the last section you can make no problem at all we'll release the recording soon after however we're to go three more sessions i'm gonna be here whoever wants to be here with me, perfect. Whoever can't, they completely understand. That's so we can cover step 11. We'll do next session, we'll do 2021-22. And then the two sessions after that, we'll doing the step 12 chapter, seven chapter and Q&A and final Q&As. So that's basically where we're going. And if you look at the notes after, now it's got after step 12, right? I usually go back with the men that I sponsor, and we come back to the beginning. We miss the preface, the four words. We missed Bill's story. There's a solution. We skip some more about alcoholism. We skip chapter four. We agnostic. We cover everything. We covered everything. And it's once a week or once every two weeks. And that allows me to continue to hold the person's hand spiritually, see where they are with their amends, see whether they're with attempt to get sponsees see where they are with the prayer meditative life because i think sometimes it's very cruel now by the way everything that you hear me say it's not mine the spiritual truth that either i have come to me through meditation i've heard someone else say it become a truth to me i don't think there's very original thoughts and alcoholic synonymous the spirit has been talking to us for thousands of years right so i think it's very cruel it's been my experience i have been very cruel unknowingly when i used to take someone through the steps and then let them go because it's almost like you know another another teacher used to use this analogy it's like waking up a baby from a deep sleep from a big sleep are you awake now and then going they're groggy they don't know what they're doing that's right so this method allows me to walk with the person continue to build a relationship with the sponsor for me the sponsorship relationship is sacred man it's sacred it's about love and god and we have to uh we learn about each other with each other's lives but i'm not saying every sponsor should be like that i'm just saying what has worked for me i've had it other ways man it was a different story when i met butch eight years ago and he he just brought me all the way in and introduced me to the real story of alcoholic synonyms the love story of alcoholics synonymous it's a different thing right okay so that was a long way to say uh i'm with the person right so um however having said that i'm not gonna be with you guys we're going to just stop after three sessions i'm not going to be with you guys for the preface and build story i'm going to leave it up to you if that's what you want to do you can do that with yours you can always read it and highlight what you want it's all good right so i'm uh just to let you guys know that's how it's gonna go i hope that was clear stop sharing all right cool all right cool all everyone good yeah was that someone clear okay thank you all right okay uh so what are we doing next recordings we talked about next three sessions we talked about all right okay bottom of page 80 we've covered this already these are what people that the step nine promises are if we are painstaking about this we covered it last week about this phase of our development we will be amazed before we are halfway through some deep promises by the way every time the spirit allows me to read this for whatever reason whether to respond see or in a meeting or right now i look at this in two ways the gratitude of what i have experienced and the excitement that of the death that is going to go still because it keeps getting better and better and better right we are not we will be amazed before we're halfway through we're going to know a new freedom and a new happiness we will not regret the past nor wish no wish to shut the door on it we will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace no matter how far down the scale we have gone we will see how our experience can benefit others that feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear we will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows self-seeking will slip away our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change fear of people and fear of economic insecurity will leave us economic insecurity for the most part hasn't left me but the fear of it has the fear that has uh we will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us we will suddenly realize that god is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves we're not going to unpack these because we talked about it last week are these extravagant promises they seem to someone who's newer or to someone who's had who just hasn't had the experience i guess um of the depth of this program they do seem extravagantly we think not they are being fulfilled among us sometimes here's an important point here's what keeps me humble sometimes quickly sometimes slowly they will always materialize that we work for them always so what's the work the next step the answer to every step is in the next time the promises of every step are enhanced and magnified and experienced on a deeper and deeper level in the actions of the next okay the work is continuing to make amends right and at the next steps so this thought what thought the thought of all the promises and the thought that sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly, I got to work for them. This thought brings me to step 10. Please circle step 10 with pen, please. Man, I appreciate you guys. The beautiful team that we have and everyone that keeps showing up. I'm so humbled by this. What experience it has been. Something I didn't want to do. one of the best things i've done not i've not i don't we've done you know like god has directed me to okay um step 10 circle step 10 so see there's a little space between the paragraphs right above the circle right just put a little line and an arrow across that in that little space please write please write daily 4-9 okay daily means daily steps four to nine Daily 4-9, comma, throughout the day. Fit it however you can fit it. Daily 4 dash 9, 4 to 9 throughout the day. Daily 4 Dash 9 throughout day. Thank you, Kristen, as always. Daily 4 DASH 9 throughout the day, okay? So let's read a little bit. Let's read it a little bit let's uh let's highlight it a little bit and come back and just talk about a little bit okay and I'm always I'm always careful to try to not talk to the group like do a step 10 talk because it doesn't serve this workshop you know what I mean but what comes up will come up so this stop brings us to step 10 grab the yellow highlighter highlighting yellow please step 10 which suggests we continue to take personal this all yellow step 10 would suggest we continue to take personal inventory and continue to set right any new mistakes as we go along important right and if you grab the pen highlight the two continues in that second line of yellow that you did one at the left one to the right so step 10 suggests we continue to take personal inventory that means it's something i've already done been introduced to but continue today i was introduced to the personal inventory step four and five or then read it to somebody right continue to take personal inventory and continue to set right any new mistakes as we go along that means so if i'm doing that if i'M doing a step four if I'm doing an inventory right uh then then i gotta read it TO SOMEBODY SHARE IT WITH SOMEONE then i do a six and seven then i DO A STEP EIGHT LIST there's this like a four to nine loosely speaking I'm going to make mistakes. I'm gonna continue to try to clean it up as we go along, okay? Highlighting yellow, we vigorously commenced this way of living as we cleaned up the past. We vigorously commence this way and living as we clean up the paths in yellow circle the word vigorously in pen okay again this is not a rigid you're wrong you're gonna know that nobody's marking my paper nobody's judging on this between me and god and my sponsor right look at to the best of my ability from where i am listen if i have a broken ankle and a cast my vigorous is going to look different than if i'm healthy but vigorously from where I am continue this way living as I cleaned up the past, okay? So step 10 is a step that I try to practice throughout the day as life is happening to me. Step 10 is not a step that I do at night, okay if there's a difference in this some new friends may have to set aside what what they know and their experiences maybe right so see the first nine steps what they've done is they've catapulted me in the realm of the spirit the first 9 steps what they've done is that as i always picture like uh i always pictured like you know like the egyptian mummies like they have like gauze or bandages it looks like they're just mummified they can't breathe i feel like that's how i was my entire life can't breath in life life is heavy for me right so the first nine steps it just starts to unravel this bondage of self and i'll be able to see some colors and breathe a little bit right that's what the first nine steps do first nine stops as if like i jump on a trampoline and i just land in a new address the realm of the spirit okay the next line it says if you highlight in pink it's a promise we have entered the world of the Spirit through the first 9 steps I've entered the World of the Spirits i'm learning a new language at the 10th step the language i used to speak in my self-centered existence not that i'm still not self-centred at times the illnesses could be alive and well but that's all i knew that language was somebody harmed me i perceived someone to hurt me or slight me or whatever it was and as what you have done to me and how i've been affected was as far as i had gone and i've always been in bondage life always is happening to me i was always a victim of life and victim of circumstances a victim of you you always had the remote control to my emotions always you know i couldn't breathe in life and i would seek a solution alcoholism will seek a solution for me and it was alcohol destroyed my life you've you have introduced me in the first nine steps to a new language it's uncommon sense the realm of the spirit doesn't make sense to my cognitive self-centered third dimensional thinking binary black and white you're evil i'm good they're evil that doesn't make sense it doesn't makes sense in this new language sure i may be hurt or slighted absolutely but if i want to be free i soon have to look at what within me has been blocking what are my mistakes in this solution if i wanna be free if i wana walk with god if i want to walk these are synonyms for god for me okay if i wanna walk with peace if i Wanna walk with love if I wanna be in the in this moment in gratitude what I have to do is look at what within me has been blocking me from the realm of the spirit from this beautiful power you could be 99.99 wrong and harmful and people are doesn't matter if I want to be free I gotta look at that one percent where am I and take full responsibility for it you could have harmed me 99% doesn't mind if I how free do I want it be if I wanted to be freed once it is revealed to me through good sponsorship and this step and other steps and prayer meditation that yes this person has harmed you but you know what you character assassinate them you talk behind their back you gotta set that right I gotta do it how free do I want to be forgiveness is not like a it's not like something I could wish and do on my own no more than it is that I can not drink on my own forgiveness is a gift that just appears out of nowhere peace in the soul is a gift that Just appears like ghosts appear when I'm taking the actions to be a humble servant to do things I sooner not do because I am right and I can make a case for me being right my cases would be me being right never landed me in happiness never did this is a deep step man see before before i was introduced to this step as outlined in the big book and continue to practice this step and realize how deep it is to me it looked like one like page and a half basically this is a universe of spiritual practice and attainment if you want to listen to a real step 10 11 talk but i'm giving you my opinion now okay if you will it's the real one the deepest that i've ever heard anyone in alcoholic synonymous give my opinion i'll listen to a lot old timers that passed on i just i listen okay mark houston mark h youtube mark eight steps, 10, 11. What a talk. Let it change your experience with what 10, 11 are. That was the talk. It doesn't go through line by line, but he does. What a talk, okay? Realm of the Spirit. Okay, that was a lot. Okay. Let's go. We have entered the realm of the spirit. That's a promise. That is a promise, okay. So um so what does that mean i've entered the realm of the spirit um oh by the way on page and step nine promises above like that did we put somewhere there 12 promises of step nine yeah yeah okay people are not okay perfect okay so now um you're gonna have to do a bit of writing here okay you have to write small i'm sorry so from the pink where it says we have entered the world of the spirit if you put a line and a little arrow to the left margin for the left margin and then turn the book clockwise so the left margin is facing you you're going to start please start writing um only the span of this paragraph or or like start from where the line where it says love and tolerance from there as far as you can we're gonna have to write maybe three four lines and go you can go to the right as much as you want but don't I guess run into any notes you wrote previous to that okay I hope that makes sense ready so we're going to write so steps 4-9 steps 4 dash 9 unplug me unplug me from, this may not be grammatically correct but I don't care. Steps 4-9 unplug me from comma and I was told to keep a comma and and together but I didn't. Step 4- 9 unplug me from comma AND expose my ego. Okay we're gonna have to write maybe three four lines so please try to fit it somewhere there steps 4-9 unplug me from and thank you thank you Kristen and expose my ego right after ego put this in brackets d-i-s dash ease end of bracket dis-ease disease but it's a play on word dis-east internal dis-earth right steps 4 dash 9 unplug me form and expose my ego So bracket, this is, D-I-S dash E, end of bracket. Comma, comma. So I can enter the world of the spirit. So I Can, and I'll keep repeating it. So ICanEnterTheWorldOfTheSpiritAndContinueToDeepenAndStrengthenMyRelationshipWithGod. That's the entire thing. Okay? So you get an idea. Okay? So, steps 4-9, unplug me from and expose my ego, dis-ease, comma, so I can enter the world of the Spirit and continue to deepen and strengthen my relationship with God. So I can Enter the World of the Spirits and Continue to Deepen and Strengthen My Relationship with God Man, people in the recordings are going to hate me. Keep repeating and repeating. it's okay you can fast forward so i can enter the world of the spirit and continue to deepen and strengthen my relationship with god i think that's a um that has come to me throughout the years in contemplation and meditation i thinkthat's a very nice uh simple way for the new person for myself for me for anybody to just we have entered the world the spirit go into the world of spirit beautiful okay so if you got the yellow highlighter our next function is to grow in understanding and effectiveness this is not an overnight matter it should continue for a lifetime that's yellow that's yellow grab the pen please the first line that we just did is the grow our next one is the growth circle of the word girl this is a growth step it talks about maintenance later on but we'll try to unpack it this is the gross that continue continue grow there's There's another old time, there's an old time where they used to say in this program we're either growing or we're going. There's no maintaining of anything, of status quo that is, grow. And then it says the last thing we highlighted, it should continue for a lifetime, circle the word continue again, circle the word, continue again. perfect okay so a couple of things that i didn't touch on so look it says with the line where we circle vigorously vigorously commence this way of living as we cleaned out the past that tells me something that means i don't wait till a good chunk of amends are done or i'll finish my amends till i start this step with a new person it says as i clean up the past i'm starting this because i've already learned this wayofliving through the first nine steps now i'm practicing it as i'm cleaning up the amends if i was to if i had the idea that i had to finish amends before beginning a step-time practice some amends may take decades because you can't find them or whatever the situation is right so right away once the sponsor is attempting approach at events we're starting this we're continuing this together we're continuing this altogether okay um and then instead the last thing will highlight it should continue for a lifetime that's so deep for me there's two sides of that coin for me when I hear that. So if it should continue for a lifetime, it says a couple of things. One is that that means I'm going to make mistakes and it's going to tell me in a few lines, right? And it's okay for me to make mistake. I don't have to be perfect. That's not what the deal is. I'm broken and God shines through the cracks. That's how it's supposed to be. My head in the clouds, Big Book talks about feet right here on earth traveling fumbling stumbling that's where my fellow travelers live i'm supposed to be making mistakes it's all good but obviously i'm not going to use as an excuse to do consciously hurt people right but it's gonna happen right so i'm gonna continue this way of living the flip side of that coin the first side keeps me humble i'm going to make mistakes i'm about to be perfect the other side of the coin gets me excited continue for a lifetime you know what that means there is no limit to the depths to the breadth of the experience with this power in this step there's no limit it gets me excited okay so perfect we got that okay now this is by the way step 10 actions we're spending a lot of time in this paragraph it's just one paragraph really these are the practices of step 10. this paragraph it's huge okay continue don't highlight yet continue to watch highlight the word watch in yellow please these are now spiritual practices that they introduce me to in the 10th step continue to yellow watch no more highlight for selfishness dishonesty resentment and fear when the so when these crop up remember continue for a lifetime not we all know the joke that we say not if these crop out valley when these grow up as i continue to watch them okay so highlight the word watching yellow so please listen carefully for the next few words we're gonna not circle them we're going to put a rectangle around them like a dark rectangular border would you please uh spotlight Thank you. Do you see here? This is what I'm talking about. See the word watch? Do you want to watch this one right here? See dark rectangular borders around it. Thank you very much. Thank you because these are we want to separate them from the circles that we've done dark rectangular border because these spiritual practices of the 10th step watch see when I'm the watcher I am free when I am the thinker I'm in prison in the prison of my thoughts look at what he's doing to me look what she's doing to me I should have said this I'm driving I should've said this actually I'm having a full conversation with my brother-in-law critique of him when I am the Thinker I have hypnotized I think that's my reality when under this this This step asks me, allows me, suggests to me to start to watch my thoughts. What that looks like? The thoughts may take me and then as soon as I'm over, I start to watching. Oh, there they go. Like clouds, like dark clouds, like software, like the background programming on a computer, just, oh, there it is. I'm separate from my thoughts I am not my thoughts, I'm the watcher of the thinker. There is freedom in that, right? I watch. Watch is a spiritual practice. Okay? By the way, please forgive me. I just feel like I'm becoming teacher. I don't want that to happen. But there's no other way to do this, okay? I'm doing this with a new person, right, and you're so pleased, okay. Okay, so watch, okay, so watched. And then it says, no more yellowing. When these crop up, okay highlight the word ask. We ask. Just ask in yellow, ask in yellow. Put a dark rectangle or square border around ask. Ask is the second spiritual action of the 10th step throughout the day. Not at night. That's a different thing. Throughout the day, 10th step throughout today. As life comes at me, I'm trying to practice this way of living. So I watch okay my thoughts take me and as soon as i remember i watch and as soon as I remember I ask I ask God to remove them at once for God to move them okay if you grab the pink highlighter to the left of us is the word we highlight that in pink only the word e we in pink to the right of us highlight the rest of the sentence in pink it's a prayer God at once to remove them okay so we we did we highlighted as separately in yellow just to make it stand out as an action you know but that's a prayer we ask god at once to remove them so i watch as soon as i'm aware i'm praying if i'm somewhere no one is around i'm playing out loud god would you please remove this self-centeredness selfishness dishonesty from me this fear from me i watch and I ask. So notice it says, I asked God at once to remove them. Doesn't say I asked God to remove the mouth once. God, I'm not demanding God to do anything. I'm praying as soon as I can. God does what God does. None of my business. Now let's go back to the watch now. What am I watching for? It tells me selfishness, dishonesty, resentment and fear. Somebody cuts me off, right? Cuts me off and then gives me the finger at the same time and and all of a sudden this mother not so much these days right but what's it all used to be right and then so the thoughts are hypnotized beyond the thinker i'm in like la la land i'm imprisoned right i'm into i'm the prison of you did to me look what happened you were the cause of the troubles on my life that's the most important thing me me me and i watch because i've started to become awake a little bit in the in the first nine steps in the practice at a 10 stop i watch and i see what's happening to me what the thoughts are doing to my step they become free what do i watch for where am i selfish here where am i dishonest here where myself seeking here where where am I delusional here what's the fear here well where am selfish well i'm only worried about me i'm not thinking about what this person may be going through maybe he had a divorce maybe he has a sick mother in the thing maybe he hasn't been able to pay his bills for for for six months like i have no maybe it's cancer in the family you're just worried about me you inconvenience me right now where am i dishonest where am i delusional do you know how many times i've done this to other people throughout my life when i do it i want forgiveness if i'm awake enough to see oh man what i did was wrong right if i wake up oh i want forgiving and compassion understand hey what's the matter come on hey what's wrong with you making a big deal out of nothing but when it happens to me how delusional dishonest what's the fear i don't know uh fear of being disrespected fear of not being the pro whatever the fear is right so i watch i watch for those things now do i have to in this spot check inventory i'm not writing right now spot check spiritual right the language of the spirit here in this blood check inventory do i have to know exactly and it has to be revealed to me exactly how i'm no i don't i just try my best to watch whatever comes and doesn't come after a few seconds or a few minutes i'm praying i'm playing outwardly or if there's a bunch of people around tim horton's line quietly in my heart i'm pray god please move this self-centeredness from me self-center fear me selfishness from show me who would you have me be what would you I need you, God. What do you want me to do? Please hold this for me. Come pray. This is not an overnight match. We continue our lifetime. We should continue to watch. We ask God at once to remove them. Okay, we did watch and ask it. We discuss them with someone immediately. Okay? Please listen carefully. Highlight only these words. Discuss in yellow. And then immediately the same line to the right in yellow discussing yellow immediately in yellow. Discuss in yellow immediately in yellow, please. Okay? Now, please put a dark rectangular border around discuss and around immediately. When you finish that, please, where the top of the line is, join them with one line. So, the line should go from the rectangle of immediately over above them with someone and join the rectangle of disgust discuss immediately and sorry we discuss them with somewhere to meet you okay so now here's the thing remember rigidity is the prison in which my soul darkens and dies it taking things literally and imposing that that literal perfection on myself and others sucks the spirit out of my life and my path. Okay? Discuss immediately. Sometimes it's warranted, sometimes it's not. Sometimes immediately looks like right away, sometimes, it's two days. The spirit of what it's talking about. Okay? So for example, if I'm at work, right? I get pissed off or whatever, and then I watch, and I pray, and ask, right, and do whatever I gotta do. I'm not picking up the phone, calling my sponsor or somebody to discuss, oh man, this is what happened. I'm not doing that. I am not taking time away from my employer. I can discuss it later on. But if something just got my head spinning and I am just, yeah, I may need to take a break. Yeah, for sure. But discuss immediately is not warranted every time. One, and it's also, maybe when I am brand spanking you, but if all I am doing is picking up the phone to discuss what's happened to me. I'm not living my life. It's a spirit of what it's talking about, okay? I hope that comes across. Discuss immediately and make amends quickly if we've harmed anyone. So highlight, please, in yellow. Amend quickly. That's a spiritual practice. Amend quickly, highlighting yellow. Put a dark rectangular border around it, please. and then quickly that's another one that's it's got to be warranted sometimes i could clean it up right away i uh maybe it was short maybe somebody the tim hortons line or the cashier maybe right quickly i watch i pray remove and i just i apologize i'm really sorry you don't deserve to be talked to that way that's that's not right of me i know it's not an easy job god bless you i apologize you know i may even throw a tip their way i'm not sure right thank you for what you do i may go there make sure to go there then the next week and get coffee and just be extra kind to that person i'm Not sure right so amends quickly sometimes i won't know the amends until I discussed it with someone later on and I realized oh my god I want amends and then I tried to find them right that's all so perfect amends quickly let's go back to immediately here so discuss immediately by the way so just so whatever that immediately looks like this immediate I have a bunch of in quotation mark immediately's around me that I trust okay so my sponsor my wife a couple other people a bunch of people right a couple of people so this is immediate and immediately conversation is not i am calling for an hour and talking about what they did or what went wrong that's not a really conversation i have understood an immediately conversation as this i pick up the phone and i call them i may be so much in bondage of self that they kindly allow me to blurt out whatever I need to blur it out for a few minutes, right? But I understand that this conversation, the point of it is so they can help me see my mistakes. They can helpme perhaps look at the exact same situation from a different angle so I can be free. That's an immediately conversation. That'a immediately conversation, right there they're helping me see things I may not see so I can be free now I may need to just let it out to somebody but I may do that I may have some a friend that I call man this person did this and then I can't believe that I hang up the phone I feel a little empty and but I feel uneasy because that's all I've done then I come pick up the form call my immediately you will though you'll believe what happened right right so that that's an immediately conversation it's not an hour conversation of a psychological assessment no this is what happened this is what they did as briefly as i can man i could see this part i was selfish but i can't see the other part i'm sure that they were wrong they helped me look at it from a different angle and i'm open to them that's immediately conversation okay perfect so quick amaze quickly if we harmed anyone then we resolutely turn our thoughts to someone we can help highlight resolutely turn in yellow please highlight resolutely turn in yellow please resolutely turned put a dark rectangular border around it okay, resolutely turn, okay, then we resolutely turn our thoughts to someone we can help. Okay, resolutively turn, okay, so there is plenty of examples and I know you guys have and I have and I'm just going to give one. So resolutely return. So I've used this example many times before but that's just what's coming in my heart now. I was a couple years in, two, three, four years in had trouble finding you know finding jobs to help support a family. I started to work for a for a sponsee. I don't sponsor him anymore he's sober he's a beautiful guy this guy Dino beautiful man he is. He had still has a company building fences wooden fences around homes right so I was laborer for him. I worked for a summer for a year or whatever and we used to use clam shovels to dig the ground four feet for the post right it was a hot summer it was tough labor laborious work oh there's a nice work frank you like that laborious frank is an intellectual so so uh and and i was tired man it was friday was towards the end of the summer and i always like tears were literally coming down my eyes it was hot and i Was pissed off at God I was angry god what the f is this i was cursing god i want to stop fighting with abs you over the bills i want it be a real man i want you to support my family 20 bucks an hour i'm just dying here what kind of deal is this god right start to hypnotize me the thoughts all of a sudden i'm watching because you've taught me well because of this practice right i watch selfish self-centered self-seeking i start to pray god please quietly i'm digging and praying god would you please remove this self-centredness from me self-center thoughts for me just show me what you want me to do god turn my thoughts to someone i can help watch as turn within 30 seconds or one minute that that prayer continuous prayer as i'm thinking i hear the voice of a 60 year old man sitting he was going on a break he was working like a laborer with me the entire summer he was a rich well-to-do businessman he owned a bunch of deck companies building decks he lost everything to a messy divorce that's what he told me right i hear i pray i hear his voice ali can i speak with you please can you help me i can't stop drinking and i wanted to commit suicide the last two weeks i just don't know what to do can you tell me i never told them in an alcoholic synonymous that that's okay if i usually do but i just never told them in conversation i said i don't drink i don' drink anymore john i'm good brother thank you no i'm all good man can you help me how do you not drink how do not want to just kill yourself every minute every day so my mouth opened up opens up and i start to talk about how bad it was and i start to talk about how beautiful you guys are what you've done for me what this program has done for you what alcoholic synonymous has done for me watch ass turn in that moment i had such a profound spiritual experience in that figurative moment however long it lasted which lasted me the rest of the summer the rest of the year i floated because in that moment i have a i had a shift in thinking and outlook in the way i view my life every half two i have to come to work i have two big dishes i have became get two i get to come to work i get to be a laborer i get to look for another job i get to help one of god's kids i get to be present for the beauty of my life i get to walk on cloud nine because this power continues to show me that this life is about the turn you have now ali entered the world of this theory you have a function now your next function is not to grow a bank account is not to do workshops and be admired is that to be a circuit speaker is that to look good is not to be happy in a marriage all the time is to be more effective in understanding and effectiveness of my will for you which is go help my kids go with my kids there's no confusion about god's will anymore oh what's god's well i'm not sure should i take this job or that job what's God's will that's third dimension that self-centered thinking that I have sometimes that's why it's confusing for me that's my undisturbed for me because this the question is coming from a self-centred place I want the job that's going to make me feel better no I have a function God's Will is very clearly laid out peppered throughout this big book Stay close to him, help his kids. You want to get to know me? Get to know my kids. You want you want to experience me right? Here's a difficult situation. Go ahead. Seek me to help your kids. It's been my life. It's my life right now. do you want to get to know me right go help my kids our next function is to grow in understanding and effectiveness life is about the turn my life has become about the term i have become a servant imperfect ugly sometimes but i try by the way when i say i you guys are all in that eye with me we right let's just i'm i have the microphone right we try just to be a little bit better servant today than i was yesterday that's all i try i want to share something i'm not going going to share in detail i want to okay no i'm not going to show no you know i'll share this in a very general way very general because it's happened more than once more than one and then i'll move we'll move forward that's happened many times few years ago a few years back it was it came to me watch us turn write inventories pray meditate it came to me you are very you're not being as effective as you could be when you continuously express your political opinions on on social media i have some strong opinions which i think i'm right which i thing are from a place of love this side is from a case of life that that side is being cruel and i truly believe that this day i do to this day I do i have transformed it has grown right i'm less judgmental for sure right but there's certain things that like man that's cruel doesn't matter which side you find but doing that is just cool that's not humane right so i used to voice this all the time i was being ineffective i used to i used to argue with people on social media but in it because i'm spiritually grown now right i don't mean very very politely effectively making points right but afterward i would be disturbed it was brought to my attention that perhaps when i have sex as your sign mentality perhaps you're being less effective in the assignment god has given to you so i stopped a few years ago i went back to 2015 see i deleted every political thing it doesn't matter what's right and i just right now it's just about love and god and what's on my heart and that's it right you know what's happened the last few years i've been able to god has used me to be able to serve people that are on the opposite side of that political whatever situation world event situation is they don't even know where i stand on it i've been able to serve them like in a very deep way not me god has used me and our love and friendship and bond has grown and i've gotten a new understanding of effectiveness oh they're thinking that way because the information they consume because how they were raised not that because they're unkind maybe if i was in their shoes i would think the same thing perhaps it's the same with me i've become free of their political postings on social media because really what am i doing huh am i some kind of president or some kind of powerful person in the world that i can actually change policy with my arguments what am I doing right now there may be a time and place for personal private conversation with people of the opposite side a different side that we may come have from a place of love yeah for sure but what am i doing watch ass turn immediately discuss right i've become a better person very few people know my political views unless they privately ask me and i trust that it's gonna you know what i mean a different assignment man soldier of god we are right love and tolerance of others is our code highlight that in yellow please love and intolerance of others as our code remember certain yellow highlights in this book i put an asterisk on either side of the line this is one of them it's super super duper important so asterix on side either side or that line it's highlighting yellow love and tolerance of other is our quote how does it become a code to the practice of a daily practice very imperfectly of this 10 step as a way of life love and tolerance slowly becomes a code a code is not something i pick and choose when i want to apply it is a code but i have to do it perfectly i'm not going to is the desire in my heart to be a better person see what the 10 step does throughout the day is continuously removes the degree of if i'm to be channel a channel for god's love for this beautiful beautiful river of love energy to flow through me if i'm a channel what self-continuity does is self throws debris in there to block this flow he said this she said this you see said this oh my god what's gonna happen to me financially that that what do i sound like did i sound stupid in this way right and what this 10 step throughout the day does watch ask immediately discuss if warranted make amends quickly if warrant it turn my thoughts to someone i can help but it does is removes the debris of self from this channel that i'm supposed to be to allow god's love to flow through me turn my thoughts as someone i can help into the lives of others that's where my bliss lies usefulness remember we talked about that a few sessions ago six and seven usefulness every step every prayer usefulness this workshop step 12 usefulness happiness is a byproduct of the purposeful filled life life has to become about the turn loosely speaking step 10 is the program loosely speaking turn right like it turned as it turned out to help other alcoholics in this 12 step right watch ask that there's prayers in there a little bit of a prayer a little bits love and stuff but communication with god loosely speaking is the problem on the ground with his legs just my opinion by the way take it or leave it's beautiful man I can share so much and so could you with me but I'm not going to bore you so love and tolerance of others are code let's move forward and we have highlighting yellow only these words cease fighting put a dark rectangular board around cease fighting is the last spiritual action in this 10th step that I've been taught that has come to me cease fighting yellow right so i cease fighting see what does that look like in many different ways depends how the spirit presents it to me right so as a result of what as to all that kind of stuff i begin to be able to cease fighting and consciously i have a desire to cease fighting life because my problem is never ever 99.99999 percent of my problem in life throughout the day is not what's happening is my story around what's happening is interpretation about what's happening what that means so i cease fighting the present moment and everything that it entails i try to cease fighting in the present moment and i start to have a desire a little bit of an awakening more and more to be present to this moment with the desire to serve this moment that's deep that's a way of life that's limitless that's the pen stuff to be presented this moment with the desired to serve by the way this moment synonym for god may you find him now cease fighting look so many freeways man it could be me and afsi right cease fighting it could be that right and i feel like that i'm a lot better now uh cease fighting you could it could be i keep using tim hortons because they got a whole dummy with their coffee man as canadians I'm like, do you actually want the Tim Hortons, right? I like two cream, one sugar. Lately, there's two cream because I want to cut out sugar, right, two cream and one sugar, she gives me a double-double. Cease fighting. It could look like I take a sip, God bless you, thank you very much, move forward. Like if I'm diabetic, I'm not going to, I don't want to dump it out, go to another Tim Horton's place. or or it could mean it doesn't have to be that what are the spirit guys right it could mean i take a sip i'm really sorry i'm just i would normally not care but that's a little too sweet for me my apologies do you mind changing that for me i probably didn't say clearly i cease fighting didn't you hear me you're not doing your stuff no he's fighting man I don't like to argue with reality, not because I'm so spiritual, but because it hurts. Arguing with reality hurts. With what's happening hurts. when i when i cease fighting when i had my injury late fall of 2012 and my tendons ripped right out of my shoulders and my chest muscles that i was like this for three four months i couldn't work so the event was that happened to me and i was it was in pain that's an event fat fat fat right any disturbance after that what's going to happen to us financially oh my god we're going to get ruined that's ego that's me fighting thank god because of this program because of this thing i had a relatively peaceful recovery time because of you guys right comfortability used to be okay cease fighting ain't you anyone even alcohol okay even alcohol i see spidey here grab the grab the pink please grab the pink please okay we gotta move a little bit more faster it took a little too long okay got the thing please highlight these are the staff time promises okay we're going to just highlight to the uh to the end of the of the paragraph on top of page 85k for by this time We will have to react sanely and normally, and we will find that this has happened automatically. Remember all this pink, all these promises? We will see that our new attitude toward liquor has been given us without any thought or effort on our part. It just comes. That is the miracle of it. We don't have fighting in either. Are we avoiding temptation? We feel as though we had been placed in a position of neutrality, safe and protected. We have not even sworn up. Instead, the problem has been removed. It does not exist for us. We are neither cocky nor are we afraid. That is our experience. That is how we react so long as we keep in fit spiritual condition. All promises, step 10 promises, okay? So once you finish highlighting in the right margin, you can we can put a little arrow right long ways the span of the paragraph these right step time promises so now here when i'm with a new person they're very clearly and literally they're talking about i believe right the drink they're taking about the drink the sanity will have return what sanity remember in the second step they told me that i'm in the roundabout way that i am insane right in the 2nd step they were not talking about i don't believe so the insanity of the actions that i take in my active like you know drinking career they are insane but that's not the sanity i need to be restored from right the sanity the insanity of the second step is that despite ample evidence in my life that the drink destroys my life i still do go back to the first drink picking up a first drink for an alcoholic is insane through the rest of the steps by a time i reach the 10 step that sanity will have returned i will have spiritual clarity in moments i'm at a bar i'm not a wedding somebody comes with me come cold beer sweat coming out of you know what i mean from down the bottle delicious delicious right for a second there oh no not like this is my thought oh that would be nice right she comes hey would you like a heineken or stella right they were both some of my favorite beers i no thank you i don't drink sanity has returned not i didn't struggle to say no it's your night i don t i did nothing to do with me spiritual defense was given to me i'm neither cocky or afraid sanity has return so long as i'm fit spiritual condition okay so now that's regarding the drink right but for if somebody is a you know not brand spanking you that's where does this me the drink question has been set aside there's no depth to this around events in my life the thinking in my life the this the events that happened that had me in bondage itself full of fear full of resentment for moments and my mind is going as i practice the 10 step or if i write inventory as i need to read it to somebody and i go through by time i get to the 10th step around that event sanity has returned it's powerful right so you have returned okay so now if we go back let's go back to page 84 the bottom margin bottom margin we're going to take a couple of notes i think it's very important and very helpful for the new person that has been for me okay to sort of decipher the spiritual practices for review maybe a morning review each morning so if you you would please spotlight me. See the bottom of page 84? Okay, see this? I started from here and then at bullet points here and then bullet points there, something like this, okay? Something like this. I know it's hard to see but I'm going to read it to you, okay. So bottom of page 84, as top left as you can get, as small as you could write, please, and you'll still be able read it please write step 10 daily practices colon highlighting yellow step 10 daily practices calling highlighting yellow by the way to our friends here um for the q a i think out of the 10 sessions maybe one of them might be able to do q a during the time allotted so i have committed a while ago to speak at a roundup one day conference uh about two hours away so immediately after this workshop i'm going to get on with my phone and i'm gonna get set and then uh and then i'll do the q a as i'm driving okay as i was driving so i think okay so um cease so i can so i make this make this talk uh daily step 10 daily practices colon okay so right below right below that line we're gonna put one two three four bullet lines for four bullet points the first bullet point please write watch okay someone spotlight me again just so i'm gonna save and you guys can see like what i've done because you can't read it but like that's step 10 daily practice is below at four bullet points right so first one is watch second bullet point below it is ask i know I know it's a little blurry, but at least you get a sense of the space that I've used. Third bullet point is turn. Fourth bullet point is cease fighting. Watch as turn cease fighting to the right of that, to the right of those bullet points. See, I put like a bracket covering all of them and I put the word see there's like a bracket covering all of them is what i'm gonna write now pertains to everything i've written the word always always so watch as turn and cease fighting are practices that always apply i may not always do them perfectly but they always are available for me throughout the day as life is happening i watch i ask it may not be warranted to immediately discuss there may be no harms done to immediately quickly and nice but i turn my thoughts to someone I can help, okay? So by the way, turn my thoughts could be, turn to my co-worker and say, how you doing? Can I, is there something I can helps you with? It could be if I have time, call the newcomer. Or it could be just turn my thought, okay, after work, I'm going to go, I am going to buy some groceries or do this for this person or call this person. Turn my thoughts, someone I can help, perfect. Watch us turn always. Watch as turn, watch as turn. So now, if you notice, i'm sorry thank you if you continue to highlight me please if you give me the highlight because i want to make sure see if you notice we finish this watch us turn always i go to the right in the middle i have wherever you can three more bullet points three more bullets three more bullet points okay so the watch ass turn cease fighting are those that we already done a bracket to the write of them the word always that means i always have an opportunity to practice these always have opportunity to practice these. Go a little bit to the right, three more bullet points. The first one is discuss immediately. The first one is discussed immediately. Thank you. Please roll the spotlight. the second bullet point below discuss immediately is amend quickly just basically what we've the highlight right amend quickly and the third one is so discuss immediately amend quickly there's a third bullet point there the bullet point is written inventories written inventories I'll tell you why it's there I consider that a step-time practice written inventors okay so discuss immediately amend quickly written inventores and then just like we did previously to the right of those three bullet points lines I put a bracket covering all of them and write the words win warranted okay so the first four bullet points are always available for me to practice the other three when warranted right we already talked about discussing me and quickly written inventory so written inventories was a tool that i was given earlier on i don't just throw that tool out of the toolbox it's not it hasn't been possible for me to be able to be so spiritually clear all the time that i just buy a spot check inventory i see my mistakes and i maybe can't do it sometimes the illness had the the illness that this ease has me so much i watch ass turn i watch as turn and even like with two three days later it still has me and i have found there's nothing more powerful than putting pen to paper writing if you will many resentment and fear inventory following that reading it to somebody taking it to a quick second six and seven seeing if there is any harms done and then diving back into 10 11. on a deeper experience written inventory earlier on they told me in the big book when during the inventory process a business that doesn't take a regular inventory usually goes broke it is some friends experiences that you live in 10 11 and 12 and the written inventory is when you first come in and that's it if that's working for you god bless you keep doing. That hasn't been my experience, that hasn't been the experience of my elders because there's a depth of a relationship with this loving power available if I use all the tools. Many inventories are part of my step 10 practice. I don't write all the time because if I'm a... Don Prince used to say, a business that doesn't take a regular inventory usually goes broke and a business thats taking inventory all the time usually goes broken too because they're not open for business. I don' t write all the time but when warranted I write. once a year actually i i commit to a first nine proposals as if i'm branch banking you from where i am throughout you i do many inventories written in wind warranty okay watch astro perfect that's a step done practice basically okay so let's go back to page 85 okay the last thing we highlighted in pink was that is how we react so long as we keep in fit spiritual condition please circle fit spiritual condition very important fit spiritual condition very important okay we got a little bit of time i want to try to cover this fit spiritual condition from the circle put a little arrow little arrow in that space you may have to like two lines in that space please write continue action in all three parts of the program we're going to be really general about this continue continued continued action in all three parts of the program and then to the writer program you can do a little circle and triangle in there we talked about that earlier we drew in the beginning of the book everything that that entails so i gotta stay in fit spiritual condition that means all three parts of the program i can't just not not have a home group not be involved in a in a home groove and think i'm going to work this way of life by myself and a couple of sponsors and coffee shop but what i'm saying is that i'm talking about you i'm telling about me hasn't worked for me three-part program in all three points writing inventories when warranted having a prayer meditative life trying to sponsor people everything that we don't have in response you know all that kind of stuff okay so continued action all three parts of the program that's generally speaking that's how i stay in fit spiritual condition but best of my ability be open to a new experience perhaps here if you grab the yellow please it is easy to let up on a spiritual program of action and rest on our laurels that's in yellow circle the word laurels from the circle from laurels put a line to the left margin write long ways. Please write yesterday's accomplishments. Laurel's one way to define is yesterday's accomplishments. It is easy for Ali and his ego to rest on it. Yesterday's accomplishments in life, in Alcoholics Anonymous, the sponsors I used to try to help, the meetings i used to go to the inventories i used the right it's easy to do that continue highlighting yellow we are headed for trouble if we do for alcohol is a subtle phone highlight then yellow circle the word subtle put a line to the right margin from the word shuttle please write hard to detect alcohol is a subtle pull hard to detect subtle circle hard to protect pick up the yellow again please continuing yellow important we are headed we are not cured of alcoholism that's in yellow we are what we really have is a daily reprieve contingent on the maintenance of our spiritual condition that's the end of the yellow I have a daily repeat, contingent, and a maintenance of my spiritual condition. What am I maintaining? I'm not maintaining the status quo. I'm maintaining a fit spiritual condition, as told to me earlier. Maintaining a fit spirit is a spiritual condition that requires continuation of action, requires the desire to grow. So, sometimes some friends have taken little bits and pieces out of context of this book. Maintenance step. No, not from my experience. Growth step. I'm maintaining a fit spiritual condition. For example, if I'm going to the gym, I'm out of shape. I go to the gem, I work out for six months, I jump on the treadmill. and then whereas before after three minutes i'm huffing and puffing maybe now 15 minutes at 15 minutes i just start to break a sweat and on the treadmill right so i'm becoming more fit physically right so I'm not going to the gym I want to maintain it I'm Not Going To The Gym To Maintain The Status Quo I Want To Maitain A Fit Physical Condition What That Means Is That If I Continue go to go to the gym and run only 15 or 20 minutes to where i start breaking a sweat to where it starts becoming hard for me and i step off the treadmill my body is going to deteriorate back i am pushing so maybe 20 minutes i'm going faster maybe i'm adding three five minutes i'm still pushing through the sweat through the pain that's how i maintain a fit physical condition spiritual life is the same thing I continue to work vigorously this way for the best of my ability right there's a growth step not a maintenance step in that sense I maintain a fixed spiritual condition that requires growth and continuation of action okay so perfect if you grab the the the pink please prayers and promise I guess prayers and every day is a day when we must carry the vision of god's will into all of our activities how can i best serve thee thy will not mind be done that's the prayer that's a prayer every day not once in a while every day i try to carry the mission of god vision of god's will into my activities god's watch your vision from me here how can i best serve thee thy will be done not mine be done that's what the 10 step does it allows me to align my will to the will of this higher power to the watch ass turn immediately immense quickly cease fighting love and talents of others written inventories are warranted right it was beautiful so from the pink if you put a little arrow to the right margin please turn the work workbook counterclockwise so the right margine is facing you you can start writing go all the way to the bottom if you want maybe two or three lines please write this in the 10th step comma in the tenth step comma i try to align my will With God's, like God's G-O-D apostrophe S, with his will, right? In the 10th step, I try to align my will with God. Just one way to look at it, by the way, not the only way. In the10th step I try align my world with God's period. He fills up my toolbox and gives me things to do period. He fills out my toolbox, and gives you things to go. in the tenth step comma i try to align my world with god's period he fills up my toolbox and gives me things to do period thank you kristin so we can read that while we keep going along my life kristine put it in the chat okay no more yellow no more pink these are thoughts which must go along with us constantly circle the word constantly I gotta ask myself have these thoughts been going with me constantly this week well they haven't I gotta right thy will be done not mine God thy will he done what's your vision for me here watch as turn constantly circle the world constantly please highlight in yellow the last two sentences of this paragraph we can exercise our willpower along this line all we wish it is the proper use of the will there's a lot of highlights and stuff just so deep right no need to rush through it with the sponsor either it's a lifetime practice so we can exercise our will excuse me our willpower along this line all we wish it is a proper use of that highlighting yellow right if you if you notice earlier on the sort of a lot of different messages in different ways the problem is your thinking your self-centeredness your will yourself will as one riot though you usually don't think so you're gonna die that's great it's obviously right i get to the 10th step look at your tummy i can exercise my willpower along this line it is the proper use of the will and i have a desire to see what god's will is for me to serve his kids in the turn in the 10-step practice we're making good time we're going to finish with a couple of things i just want to touch on so just go back to the rest of our laurels for a second okay I'm going to share my experience and my arrogance I didn't know I just didn't knew right I've become better like when I used to read that to respond see and go through it or just is to come up with maybe someone few years back but um I used to rest on my laurels I used almost talk about her presented as like the person has a choice what are you doing you're you're resting on your look sometimes look sometimes it's warranted with a man that i sponsored that trust me to have that conversation for sure right well i'm telling every time there was an energy of like the person knows better they're just not doing better how delusional of me how arrogant of me how self-centered of me am i living a perfect life sponsoring people punching 10 years ago no nine years ago punching picture frames in the living room because ashley and i went at it and we're just like not physically at it but she was we're going at it you know what i mean am i looking at perfect life and i'm coming at this person with the energy of what do you do right no man i've been humbled the person me Ali have no more power and not to rest on my laurels than I did and not to drink again that's not used as an excuse for me to do what I want to do maliciously unconsciously no but what I'm saying is that sometimes this illness man it is so powerful it's not that I am trying to rest On My Laurels and cut down not write the inventory that should be writing whatever it is right it's that this illness has grabbed me and sit me down on my rolls on yesterday's accomplishments powerless man but what it takes is a kindness of another alcoholic the sharing of experience from a non-judgmental place understanding and compassion of another alcoholic to allow me to oh okay you've done it too okay i see now clearly that's when i got it come on brother it's all good man there's a world of difference man i've become better and i want to continue to be better to be more effective in understanding and effectiveness this i have to touch on that because usually when we talk about laurels people talk about right and rightfully so and i wish we had time like i wanted to but we don't have time i want to talk about ask people about the experience of laurels because there's man when we rest on our laurels knowingly or not oh devastation happens in life sober never mind drinking oh my god right so we don' t have time for that one that's one thing um the other thing is okay let's do the next paragraph and we can touch it okay so much has already been said about last paragraph grab the pink highlighter now highlight in pink these promises going forward on a deeper level okay even if you had a lot of experience in this path okay so from receiving in pink receiving strength inspiration and direction from him who has all knowledge and power so i asked him have you start to receive you start to notice right i ask you ask yourself have i am i open to the to the to the possibility that it'll be more of this doesn't matter how long or how deep i believe my recovery is you know so receiving strength inspiration and direction from him who has all knowledge and power pink continuing pink if we have carefully followed direction we have begun to sense the flow of his spirit into us by the way that word begun is a it meets me spiritually No matter how deep I think my practice is, I have always, always just begun scratching the surface of building a relationship with an infinite power. Infinite power. Always begun. We have begun to sense the flow of his spirit into us. Continuum pink, to some extent, we have become God conscious. We have began to develop this vital sixth sense. that's the end of pig that's the end of pig okay and if you grab the pen we're going to make a couple of circles just the very last sentence we have begun there's a couple of circles circle the word develop we're developed what does that mean remember continue for a lifetime I can make mistakes there's no limit I continue to develop let's stay humble here Ari this vital circle the world vital this is vital my spiritual oxygen i have never been too busy to breathe oxygen by the way i have ever told another human being what um you want me to do this or that or go to this meeting and help that newcomer speak over here pray in prayer meditative life go to work stay up for a baby that i have never ever told another human being i am too busy i have to breathe oxygen or another like i excuse me i've never told another humane to say i can't do that because i know i this is spiritual oxygen this work way of life i don't care how full the plate this this is my spiritual oxygen it may look different when i have a more of full plate but there's still the desire you know what i mean to take action vital six cents circle six cents please we got three minutes circle six times please circle six cents dude so this is a vital six what six cents this relationship with god this intuition this inspiration this loving power this inner resource i don't care what you call it the word god means nothing it's just the word it's the power behind the word that i seek mark houston used to say that six cents is vital man if this sixth sense is not an umbrella which covers all my other five senses and directs me i am dead in the water my five senses will lead me to a drink will lead me into a divorce will lead to destruction and everything and anything worthwhile in my life i've done it so i've got a soldier six cents okay circle the word six cents please put a little line and an arrow to the left margin from sixth sense right god consciousness another way god consciousness in the spiritual experience i think it talks about this awareness of a power greater than me is the essential part of the spiritual experience this awareness somewhere else it says you cannot fail with the right attitude with this attitude you will be conscious of his presence conscious of this presence do this that time it's fine god consciousness yeah kristen i don't know how to spell it either good i was conscious i did the best i could god consciousness Okay, no more highlighting, no one nothing. Please stay with us. Remember friends that please stay with this for another couple minutes before you go. The last line no highlight nothing. Notice this pattern in the big book right? You have a problem. Here's just rudely speaking. Here is a set of actions. Here are some promises you'll get or you want to keep these promises keep going. It never stops look what we must go further and that means more action. Next week hopefully we'll cover all of step 11, God willing. We'll cover step 11. More action. Okay? So before you leave, just one quick minute. Just that if you notice, first of all, okay, we're going to do the Q&A after, okay? So step 10 in the Big Book is a lot different than step 10 and the 12 and 12, isn't it? there's a lot different right so we talked about that earlier on now it is true i hear some elders around me who i respect respect man i heard them say at some point the numbers have to fall off the steps and i understand what they're saying i completely understand what this thing means this has to be a become a way of life i'm not arguing with somebody in a meeting when they're saying I do my step 11 and my step 10 at night I'm not arguing with them the big book is throughout the day what about the entire parade I'm like okay fine whatever right that's to become a way of life right that is true but it is also true that if I have the belief system that step 10 is something I only review at night I possibly could be missing an entire practice throughout the date I'll throw my stuff away it is also true as it is true that the numbers have to fall off the steps but it's also true if we're not speaking the same language we're dead in the water if I am calling a book a knife and you are calling it a book we can no longer communicate step 10 is throughout the day step 11 has a part which says when we review we review at night right but perhaps you could someone could look at it well that's i'm reviewing the step 10 practices i did throughout the date maybe you could look no problem whatever right but what i want to be clear for the friends that they've always thought that step 10 something i do at night perhaps you do the review of the practice but the practices throughout the day man we just looked at it how deep it is something else anyways god bless you guys thank you guys so this is what we're gonna do right now okay i love you guys kuna can you please end the recording okay kuna may have gone okay no problem so so what well what we'll do is um um we'll finish mickey please and then we'll unmute everybody so we can say our goodbyes Can you please end the recording, brother?