If That Works for You Literally Go On With Your Bad Self 😂 – Madeline H.

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BBCA Deep Dive - 2024

Power, control, attention, and affection—these were the desperate drivers behind the internal wreckage of Madeline H.'s life. She dismantles the illusion of having multiple problems arguing instead that she suffers from a single fundamental lack of power to live. Madeline H. describes her history of sexual compulsion and chronic physical pain as psychosomatic manifestations of a lifelong habit of tensing her muscles against a world she couldn't control. She traces her shift from a state of 'bondage of self' to a spiritual liberation explaining how applying the Big Book's concrete directions—specifically regarding sex conduct and the discipline of helping others—allowed her to move from chemical dependence to a state of chemical independence even while living with chronic pain.

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• 0:45 Madeline H. begins by reading from page 55 of the Big Book regarding spiritual liberation.
• 2:15 Discussion on the necessity of a Higher Power over human aid for the 'real alcoholic'.
• 4:30 Madeline H. breaks down the 'bondage of self' and the internal dialogue of the alcoholic.
• 6:10 Laughter: Madeline H. discusses her motivations of power, control, attention, and affection.
• 8:20 Detailed experience with the 12 Step solution applied to sexual compulsion and Big Book page 71.
• 11:15 Madeline H. describes her experience with chronic pain and the psychosomatic nature of her tension.
• 14:40 Discussion on the 'Family Afterword' and capitalizing on trouble to demonstrate a Higher Power's omnipotence.
• 17:10 Advice for agnostics and newcomers on focusing on action over the definition of a Higher Power.
• 19:00 Closing thoughts on clearing the debris from the channel between the self and a Higher Power.