The tight grip of women holding Tracy K. While She Fights Recovery – New-2024

About This Speaker Tape

Tracy K.’s alcoholism wore many disguises: a pink flower bottle hidden in a school desk, bulimia masking the binge, a wall of denial thick enough to drink wine at DUI class. Her bottom arrived curled on a couch, shaking through withdrawal while watching Nurse J., the bottle finally empty. A superintendent’s son facing amputation forced a single sober day, which cracked the dam.

Rehab followed. In the rooms, women held her tight while she raged, swore, and plotted to prove the program wrong. Instead, she found a Higher Power of experience, not understanding.

The pink bottle gave way to living amends, Step 11 meditation, and a fellowship that texts her courage instead of gossip. She plugged her holes with cork bottles; now she’s whole.

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Timestamps

• 0:00 Meeting call to order, Julie introduces Tracy Kelly
• 0:45 Tracy opens with a joke about page 96 and prays to relieve the bondage of self
• 1:30 Childhood sensory triggers and the family drinking culture that normalized the bottle
• 2:40 Watching her aunt’s decline to a graveside funeral at fifty-six
• 3:50 College years: bulimia, glove compartment wine, and teaching psychology while active
• 5:05 Husband’s I-95 accident, Tracy’s DUI, and drinking wine at lunch during DUI class
• 6:15 The couch collapse: four days of withdrawal, watching Nurse Jackie, hitting the wall
• 7:20 The superintendent’s son forces a sober day; rehab and the 90/90 program begin
• 8:10 Women in the rooms hold her rage; she discovers the Higher Power of experience
• 9:05 Living amends, Step 11 meditation, and texts of courage replacing old gossip
• 9:50 Cork-stuffed holes to holy and whole; chip ceremony closes the meeting