The Surrender That Happened After 12 Years Sober – Nancy M.

About This Speaker Tape

A 1971 sobriety date marks the shift from a life of locked bedroom doors and mountain-top wine bottles to a world of houseboats and high-energy service. Nancy M. describes the wreckage of her early years—locking her three young sons in their room to hide her drinking from the neighbors—and the desperate neon-bright arrival at her first meeting in an orange polyester pantsuit.

The narrative moves through the absurdity of her early sobriety including a series of elaborate airport disguises to prank her sponsor Clancy C. and the later emotional collapse that sent her to Hawaii with two suitcases and a one-way ticket. Through the chaos of impulsive shopping and multiple marriages she finds a steady center in the basics of the program and the quiet dignity of letting her children go to live with their father when she realized she could no longer provide the security they needed.

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• 0:45 Laughter: Story about Al's colonic hydrotherapy.
• 3:15 Early sobriety: The obsession with making 300 burritos in the middle of the night.
• 5:20 Laughter: The series of airport disguises to prank her sponsor, Clancy C.
• 10:15 The wreckage: Locking her children in their bedroom to hide her drinking.
• 15:30 The first meeting: Arriving in an orange polyester pantsuit and throwing up in the parking lot.
• 18:45 Sponsorship: The struggle to call sponsors and the fear of being 'orange looking'.
• 23:10 Spiritual growth: The decision to let her children move in with their father.
• 27:45 Relapse of the spirit: The emotional breakdown and the flight to Hawaii with two suitcases.
• 32:10 Current life: Moving from Minnesota to a 26-foot houseboat in California.