The Difference Between Truth and Feelings in the Inventory – George G.

About This Speaker Tape

Brooklyn, 1956. A seven-year-old boy helps carry packages for two people into a house, only to have the door lock behind him. George G. describes this trauma as the "spiritual blockage" that kept him from picking up a pen for his fourth step. For years, he lied to his sponsor, claiming he had written and burned his inventory when he was actually paralyzed by a secret he intended to take to the grave. He calls the eventual breakthrough a "spiritual enema."

George strips away the "hallmark" approach to recovery, dismissing "feelings inventories" as nonsense. To him, feelings aren't facts—they are just a "truth" that often obscures the real truth. He details a grueling process of listing the seven deadly sins and mapping out his patterns of laziness and rage, noting that resentment is like taking poison and wanting the other person to die. Through a Higher Power and a gritty, honest accounting of his wreckage, he moved from being a "hostage taker" to finding a fragile, hard-won peace.

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• 0:00 George opens by discussing the transition from the Third Step to the Fourth Step.
• 2:30 Laughter: George describes his early dishonesty with his sponsor, Larry, about writing his inventory.
• 5:15 George shares the traumatic event from 1956 in Brooklyn that created his spiritual blockage.
• 8:40 George critiques various Fourth Step guides and 'prompt sheets' available in the rooms.
• 12:10 George explains his sponsor's method of using the 'seven deadly sins' as a framework for the inventory.
• 16:00 George discusses the pattern of resentment and the metaphor of drinking poison and wanting the other person to die.
• 20:30 George reflects on his faulty relationships, describing himself as either a 'victim or a hostage taker'.
• 24:00 George lists his character defects in a rapid-fire sequence, contrasting them with his later discovered assets.
• 27:15 George concludes by emphasizing the importance of the 'penlight step' and the necessity of writing.