Surrendering to Life on Life’s Terms Without the Fight – Paul M.
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Northern Ireland, a seaside town, a ten-year-old kid singing Chitty Chitty Bang Bang before falling off a stage drunk. Paul M. describes a life lived as a "symptom looking for a disease," possessing a "stone in my shoe feeling" long before the first bottle. He fled to New York, washing up like driftwood in Rockaway Beach, where he became the worst bartender in the worst dive bar in the neighborhood—a place you were thrown into rather than out of.
He lived as a "periodic alcoholic," oscillating between round-the-clock benders and white-knuckle dry spells, until a hot August morning of "crying in the dark" led to a total surrender. After admitting he had made booze his deity, he found a Higher Power and a bridge back to life. Paul emphasizes that while the first surrender stops the drinking, a second surrender to "life on life's terms" is required to stop the misery. He traded the starting pistol of an escape artist for a design for living.
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