People-Pleasing and the Need to Prove So Much to So Many – Lila R.
About This Speaker Tape
Ohio Street, a kitchen filled with the ghosts of old-timers and the smell of coffee. Lila R. returns to the room after a decade, recalling a time when she was the "baby in the kitchen," watching men discuss divorce and murder while judging the character of a person by how they picked out a doughnut. She admits her greatest intimate relationship was once with porcelain—the bathroom floors of a desperate alcoholic.
Lila speaks on the grit of long-term sobriety, dismissing the myth of becoming a saint. She recounts the wreckage of being conned out of a fortune by a sober member and the humility of getting on her knees with her back to the door. For Lila, sanity is simply balance. She describes a life saved by the mundane: eating a banana, taking a warm bath, and brewing a cup of tea. Now, with grey hair and skin tanned by the Caribbean sun, she has stopped trying to prove herself to people who never cared, finding peace in a Higher Power of collective consciousness.
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