Paige F. at the Big Book Workshop – 2023

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Big Book Workshop - 2023

A4 notebook paper and a good inky pen are the tools of the trade for Paige F. as she breaks down the mechanics of the Fourth Step. She treats the inventory not as a self-flagellation exercise but as a commercial inventory of the soul—tossing out the expired and damaged goods to clear the wreckage blocking a connection with a Higher Power. Through a series of hypothetical examples involving a mistress a boss and a neighbor she illustrates how to move from the petty 'whining' of the second column to the rigorous self-examination of the fourth. She emphasizes that while childhood trauma is real the work is not in the 'before,' but in how one reacted to it. The session moves from the corrosive nature of fear—which she describes as a fabric shot through with anxiety—to the liberation found in admitting one's own mistakes arguing that there is no freedom in being right.

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Timestamps

• 0:45 Paige F. introduces the transition into Step Four and the concept of 'vigorous action'.
• 4:12 Discussion on the purpose of the Fourth Step: identifying blocks between the self and a Higher Power.
• 7:30 The 'commercial inventory' metaphor: identifying damaged goods without self-hate.
• 12:15 Laughter: The 'doing lines' joke regarding the fear of drawing lines in a notebook.
• 16:40 Detailed breakdown of the three sections of the inventory: resentments, fears, and sex conduct.
• 22:10 The 'Sick Man's Prayer' and the shift in orientation toward those who offend us.
• 31:05 Analysis of the 'Mr. B.' and 'Ms. J.' examples from the Big Book.
• 42:20 Discussion on the 'corrosive' nature of fear and the 'fabric of existence'.
• 51:15 Interactive exercise: walking through the fear of public speaking and the 'approval suck'.
• 58:40 Closing thoughts on discernment and the danger of hyper-self-reliance.