Getting Out of the Will and Out of Yourself – Bob D.
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Long Beach, California. A childhood spent crawling around a drunk mother’s bed to steal purse money while a gambler brother hustled the house. Bob D. describes a "dog-eat-dog" existence, hiding behind doors with a butcher knife, terrified of the night. He chased a feeling that "worked 100%"—a cocktail of weed, bennies, and booze in a lowered Buick—only to find himself in a cycle of jail cells and "wino motels."
He tells of a marriage forged in despair, funded by hocking a surf fishing pole for a license. Together, he and his wife lived as "derelicts," stealing furniture for twenty dollars and laughing while they tricked the world from a rescue mission bed. The wreckage peaked in a muddy blur on Skid Row, beaten with the back of a hoe. After a final crash into a telephone pole, Bob found himself in the Los Angeles County Jail, staring at a life of total despair. He had to get out of his own will and put his hands in the hands of a Higher Power to stop being his own worst enemy.
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