Every Dumb Story Starts With Well I Thought – Buckingham G.

About This Speaker Tape

A nap for Steps Six and Seven. Jennifer K. looks back at the wreckage of a 'by-the-book' attempt that wasn't actually by the book recounting how she once comforted herself with the fantasy of a brain tumor to explain her chaotic choices and the people she brought home.

She describes the 'face plant' of her early recovery where she burned a 137-page Fourth Step that lacked the crucial columns on fear and sex leading to a spiritual void she tried to fill with a misplaced confidence in her own intelligence. The narrative shifts from the arrogance of thinking she was a 'no-brainer' to the realization that her defective thinking is a constant companion often leading her to call her sponsor after the fact to report the latest disaster.

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Timestamps

• 0:00 Jennifer K. introduces herself and her sobriety date of December 5, 1992.
• 0:35 Laughter: Jennifer K. discusses being 'in the game' and face-planting in public.
• 1:15 Jennifer K. shares a joke about humility that only she found funny.
• 2:00 The 'brain tumor' theory to explain her drinking behavior.
• 2: la Discussion of the insanity mentioned in Step Two.
• 2:45 The realization that her defective thinking leads her into trouble.
• 3:15 Description of the first attempt at the Fourth Step: 137 pages of resentments.
• 3:45 Laughter: The 'nap' that counted as Steps Six and Seven.
• 4:10 The lack of a proper Eighth Step and the failure to make amends.
• 4:40 The consequences of an incomplete Fourth Step regarding fear and sex.