Big Book Workshop – Kelly M. – 2026 Wilson House Retreat – with Andy B. and Kathleen B.

About This Speaker Tape

Kelly M. leads a meditation session in a snowy East D. room, starting with a warning that the mind is not the ally we think it is.

She reflects on her own history of independence and the 'badge of honor' she wore while buying her first house and getting through college, only to realize through the Big Book and Dr. Silkworth that the alcoholic mind is fundamentally broken. She describes the struggle with the 'noisy committee' in her head and the 'I suckness' of her internal monologue.

The session focuses on using the body—specifically the feet on the floor and the breath—as an anchor to quiet the noise and make space for a Higher Power. Kelly emphasizes that meditation isn't about shutting the mind off, but becoming skillful at observing the racy, bossy mind without judgment before returning to the stillness.

Topics

Timestamps

• 0:00 Opening breath work and settling into the room.
• 2:15 Discussion of Dr. Silkworth and the 'alcoholic torture' of the mind.
• 3:45 Reflection on Bill W.'s story and the lie of 'managing better next time'.
• 5:00 Introduction to Step 11: Prayer and Meditation.
• 6:30 Practical tips: Using the body and feet on the floor to quiet the mind.
• 8:15 First guided meditation session.
• 11:30 Group sharing on 'racy minds' and the 'little engine' of self-talk.
• 13:15 The 'noisy committee' in the head and making space for a Higher Power.
• 15:30 Second guided meditation session.
• 17:45 Closing thoughts on acceptance of the present moment.