Under My Administration I Was a Respected Member of a Locked Ward — Jimmy T.

About This Speaker Tape

Jimmy from Lemon Grove, California tells his story at a Spring Festival with razor-sharp humor and deep emotional honesty. He describes a lifetime of loneliness and fear masked by drinking, starting in high school and escalating over a decade of increasingly chaotic episodes — bar fights, jail stints for petty offenses, and a marriage that ended while he was too drunk to notice. A head injury left him with post-traumatic epilepsy, and when he mixed alcohol with seizure medication, the consequences were catastrophic: repeated psychiatric hospitalizations, a state-imposed conservatorship, and the complete loss of his independence.

His body paid an enormous price. Doctors removed eighty percent of his stomach, then half his pancreas. His heart stopped. He endured fourteen major abdominal surgeries. Each time he told the doctor he would never drink again, and each time he meant it — and each time he was drunk within weeks. He describes himself as the textbook hopeless alcoholic from the Big Book, unable to recall with sufficient force the suffering of even a week ago.

Everything changed when he walked into the Lemon Grove Alano Club and a man told him something no therapist or institution ever had: that they shared the same problem, and together they could recover. That single word — we — broke through twelve years of psychotherapy and ten years of locked wards. Jimmy threw himself into meetings, spending entire days at the club, and began working with a sponsor who was gentle rather than tough.

Now married to Pat, also a member of AA, Jimmy describes a life overflowing with friendship, activity, and trust in Higher Power. He shares how sponsoring an obnoxious newcomer for a full year coincided with his own blood condition resolving itself, and how his epilepsy inexplicably improved after years of sobriety — his doctor had no explanation, but Jimmy points to the Big Book's promise that when the spiritual malady is overcome, we straighten out mentally and physically. He recovered from a stroke the previous August by immediately returning to service work with newcomers. His central message is that the miracle of AA is not a single dramatic event but the daily, impossible transformation from a locked ward to a free life.

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• 0:00 Introduction at Spring Festival; Jimmy describes Lemon Grove as 14 miles north of Tijuana Jail
• 3:00 Talks about lifelong loneliness and fear as his two dominant emotions before AA
• 7:00 Describes escalating arrests and the laundromat-dryer astronaut competition with drinking buddies
• 12:00 Head injury causes post-traumatic epilepsy; loses career as a diver and all independence
• 17:00 Mixing alcohol with seizure medication leads to repeated psych ward stays and state conservatorship
• 22:00 Series of catastrophic surgeries — stomach, pancreas, clinical death — and drinking again each time
• 28:00 Walks into Lemon Grove Alano Club; a man says the word 'we' and everything changes
• 35:00 Early sobriety stories: the clock-staring paranoia, the parrot on the man's shoulder, getting hit by a car while praying
• 42:00 Sponsoring an obnoxious newcomer for a year while his own blood condition resolves; trust in God
• 48:00 Epilepsy inexplicably improves; stroke recovery through service work; closing on the miracle of daily transformation