Internal Discomfort, the Feeling She Could Never Name Until AA – Audrey C.

About This Speaker Tape

Audrey shares at Benchmark Recovery Center in 2013, sober since March 2, 2004. The daughter of two alcoholics with two drug-addicted sisters, she grew up feeling an internal discomfort she could never pin to outside circumstances. She discovered alcohol as a teenager and it shifted her world — shoulders dropped, she could breathe in her own skin.

She changed majors, towns, and people but the problem traveled with her. She drank alone in her garage, got arrested in pajama pants, and finally called her mother from a back road admitting she was an alcoholic. A woman who understood the Big Book took her through the steps quickly, she had a psychic change, and has not had a drink in nine years.

She emphasizes that something must change internally because bourbon already proved an outside substance can do that.

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• 00:00 Daughter of two alcoholics with two drug-addicted sisters
• 08:00 Internal discomfort she could never pin to outside circumstances
• 16:00 Discovering alcohol as a teenager — shoulders dropped and she could breathe
• 24:00 Changing majors, towns, and people but the problem traveled with her
• 32:00 Drinking alone in the garage and getting arrested in pajama pants
• 40:00 Calling her mother from a back road admitting she was an alcoholic
• 48:00 A woman who understood the Big Book took her through the steps quickly
• 56:00 Something must change internally because bourbon already proved that