The Relationship Between Judgment and Anger – Scott

About This Speaker Tape

A 41-year chip in his pocket and a history of flying Air Force jets while drunk Scott L. delivers a masterclass in the 'do it anyway' philosophy of surrender. He moves from the wreckage of a 'strangely insane' life—marked by a childhood of trauma and a career of high-altitude recklessness—to a present defined by blowing bubbles and wearing a clown nose in Nashville traffic to lift others' spirits.

Scott L. dissects the Big Book with surgical precision contrasting the 'Fellowship of AA' with the 'Fellowship of the Spirit,' and shares his battle with throat cancer as a lesson in staying 'between the clamps' of the present moment. He rejects the idea of a punishing deity instead embracing a friendly Higher Power and a life where mistakes are merely lessons dressed in work clothes.

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Timestamps

• 0:45 Scott L. discusses his central nervous system disorder and invites the room to borrow his Higher Power.
• 4:12 Laughter: Scott L. describes the 'magic juice' and the feeling of getting taller and better looking while drinking.
• 7:30 Scott L. explains the 'Page 112 meeting' format and the importance of reading the Big Book.
• 12:15 Discussion of the 'Fellowship of the Spirit' and the risks of relapse when spiritual membership lapses.
• 18:40 Laughter: The 'pre-AA prayer'u2014'Higher Power get me out of this, I'll never do it again.'
• 24:10 Scott L. defines willingness and surrender as the act of doing it anyway.
• 32:15 Scott L. shares his experience with throat cancer and the concept of staying in the 'today' window.
• 38:50 A story about a newcomer at a meeting and the '24 karat gold opportunity' to be of service.
• 44:10 Scott L. discusses the relationship between judgment and anger, and the importance of the pause.
• 51:20 Closing reflections on childhood trauma and becoming the man the four-year-old boy in his photo deserved to be.