Meditation – Mark H. – 2020

About This Speaker Tape

Mark recounts his journey from being separated from alcohol and cocaine on October 19, 1982. He emphasizes that the core problem isn't the substance, but brutal selfishness—the ego's constant need to be the center. His recovery hinges on rigorous spiritual work: meditation, inventory (Steps 4-9), and the daily disciplines of Steps 10 and 11.

He stresses that true freedom comes from accepting that everything, including life and sobriety, is 'on loan' and that the ultimate goal is to 'quit playing Higher Power' by surrendering to a Higher Power's will. The process is described as a marathon, not a sprint, requiring constant attention to the present moment.

Topics

Timestamps

• 0:00 Introduction and statement of sobriety date (Oct 19, 1982).
• 0:45 Discussion of separation in fear, noting 'There's no separation in fear.'
• 2:10 Reading from meditation text: 'Once you have seen the face of Higher Power, you will see that same face on everyone that you meet.'
• 4:00 Discussion of the Big Book's instructions, noting the 'revolutionary experience.'
• 13:00 Discussion of the 10th and 11th steps, emphasizing daily practice and meditation.
• 23:00 Detailed discussion of the 5th Step, noting the process of turning resentments into a 'lie' to gain freedom.
• 3:00 Mention of the 'sacraments of penance' as a tool for identifying defects of character.
• 1:00 Final reflection on the 'beginner's mind' and the need to stay present.